So I was going to go with a 4th of July theme for my blog being as it is the 4th coming up.. But you know what is coming up even sooner then that?? In just 2, yes count them TWO days my beautiful, sweet little monster is
going to be 2 years old.. Its just so hard to imagine that 2 years have already gone by. To think on the first was the night my mom and I went to the hospital because I hadnt felt Ellie move all day. They kept me over night for monitoring.. I had no signs of going into labor prior to that.. At four AM on the 2nd I started having minor contractions.. They checked me at 7:30 am on the 2nd and said I was 3 centimeter but even they didnt think I was going to go into labor that day. Sure enough only a few hours later we were back at the hospital.. Elisabeth Quinn-Maxine was born at 5:40 PM, weighed 5 lbs 8 oz and was 19 inches long.. Now though you would have never know she was so tiny.. She is my Ellie Bellie! I think she is pushing 31 lbs.. lol She is such a chatter box too.. Its crazy! Just to name a few:
Mommy
Daddy
Brother
Garrett (sorta)
baba
cup
paci (waci)
blankie (kiekie)
ball
dog
kitty
listen
sit
up
down
sit up
side (outside)
She can say so much more then that. She's even starting to repeat stuff of the tv. She came running into the kitchen the other day saying "Which way? This way? No.. That way?? No.. This way!" They were treasure hunting on her cartoons.. I really hate how much time she spends watching TV, but she has learned a lot of works from it. She can count to 3 in Chinese, says Ting (listen in Chinese) and puts her hand to her ear and soo much more!!
Kids are just plain amazing!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
The Power of Music
Have you ever stopped to think what the world would be like if there was no music? If no one new how to sing?? It would be pretty damn quiet, road trips would be long and boring, house work wouldnt be as much fun.. Think of all the things that couldnt happen because there was no music! (Dancing)
How many song come on the radio that you can apply to something that has happened in you in your life? I know there are many song that I can think of for my self. Some are just song that make me remember certain things that happened in life.
When my now husband and I split up over 2 years ago, I stopped listening to country music. It just made me more sad and depressed as it was the genre of music we listened to. I then started listening to alternative. The song that pretty much summed up my life at the moment was "Timebomb" by God Smack. Talks about your life being a living hell and wondering why your even alive. Totally fit for how I felt. I messed my life up so bad.
One day in December my ex came to the house that I was staying at to talk about thing. Along with him he brought a CD. The artist was Jason Aldean. I hadnt yet hear of him since I was on a hiatus from country music. He put the CD into the stereo and turn it on. The song was "Do you wish it was me?" Instantly I broke into tears, the song, its words, they just fit with out I felt. I listened to that song almost every day after that night. I did wish it was him I was still with.. Luckly we did end up working our problems out and are now married!
Another song that catches my heart any time I hear it is "Fix you" by Coldplay. I can hear just the background music and it give me goose bumps. Someone I know, but not very well, had lost her baby before he was born. She had to go through birth at 31 weeks to a still born baby boy. She made a video to remember him by. She said this was his song because she had once sang it to him before she knew he had passed. I have watched that video so many times and even as I type this get tears in my eyes. No one should ever EVER lose a child. It doesnt matter if its a still born, SIDS, a car accident, murder.. No one SHOULD EVER lose a child.. Its my biggest fear.. So this song, though I liked it before all this, will forever be in my heart as will the mother and her perfect little boy.
That new song of Carrie Underwood, "Undo It" applies great to someone else. When my DH and I had split up (you know 2+ years ago before we were married) I had left him because I was lusting after this "bad boy" He lead me on. We had a great time together for about 3 weeks, then it went down the drain, as did my life at that time.. This song makes me think of the hell he put me through, the hell I put my self through and how much I thought at the time I had messed my life yup. Although he is a thing of my past, rarely to be thought of or even spoken of, he still comes up in moments when I least expect it. Im so over him and hate him or what happened.. So I would like to undo it, get my happy that he had stolen along with my heart and erase the memories we had together. I just want to copy that song on a CD and mail it to his dumb ass. However, I do not want to go back and do it all over because in the end I got something amazing out of that little blip in my life.. I got Ellie.. I got my beautiful baby girl.. I love her so much and cannot imagine life with out her.
So it is just crazy how music has such an impact on every day life. There are songs that I can relate things to from years and years and years ago. I couldnt imagine a world without music..
How many song come on the radio that you can apply to something that has happened in you in your life? I know there are many song that I can think of for my self. Some are just song that make me remember certain things that happened in life.
When my now husband and I split up over 2 years ago, I stopped listening to country music. It just made me more sad and depressed as it was the genre of music we listened to. I then started listening to alternative. The song that pretty much summed up my life at the moment was "Timebomb" by God Smack. Talks about your life being a living hell and wondering why your even alive. Totally fit for how I felt. I messed my life up so bad.
One day in December my ex came to the house that I was staying at to talk about thing. Along with him he brought a CD. The artist was Jason Aldean. I hadnt yet hear of him since I was on a hiatus from country music. He put the CD into the stereo and turn it on. The song was "Do you wish it was me?" Instantly I broke into tears, the song, its words, they just fit with out I felt. I listened to that song almost every day after that night. I did wish it was him I was still with.. Luckly we did end up working our problems out and are now married!
Another song that catches my heart any time I hear it is "Fix you" by Coldplay. I can hear just the background music and it give me goose bumps. Someone I know, but not very well, had lost her baby before he was born. She had to go through birth at 31 weeks to a still born baby boy. She made a video to remember him by. She said this was his song because she had once sang it to him before she knew he had passed. I have watched that video so many times and even as I type this get tears in my eyes. No one should ever EVER lose a child. It doesnt matter if its a still born, SIDS, a car accident, murder.. No one SHOULD EVER lose a child.. Its my biggest fear.. So this song, though I liked it before all this, will forever be in my heart as will the mother and her perfect little boy.
That new song of Carrie Underwood, "Undo It" applies great to someone else. When my DH and I had split up (you know 2+ years ago before we were married) I had left him because I was lusting after this "bad boy" He lead me on. We had a great time together for about 3 weeks, then it went down the drain, as did my life at that time.. This song makes me think of the hell he put me through, the hell I put my self through and how much I thought at the time I had messed my life yup. Although he is a thing of my past, rarely to be thought of or even spoken of, he still comes up in moments when I least expect it. Im so over him and hate him or what happened.. So I would like to undo it, get my happy that he had stolen along with my heart and erase the memories we had together. I just want to copy that song on a CD and mail it to his dumb ass. However, I do not want to go back and do it all over because in the end I got something amazing out of that little blip in my life.. I got Ellie.. I got my beautiful baby girl.. I love her so much and cannot imagine life with out her.
So it is just crazy how music has such an impact on every day life. There are songs that I can relate things to from years and years and years ago. I couldnt imagine a world without music..
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
A little bragging
Its been a while since Ive posted much in this blog.. So here goes with some bragging... Garrett is 4.5 months old. He can roll over from his back to belly with no problem at all.. Once there, he pushed his front half up with his arms. Then at times tries super hard to pull his knees in (like to crawl) I sawer it wont be long till he is on the move! He already can make little circles. He is my big boy! I cannot believe that he is almost 5 months. Its crazy how time just slips away..
And speaking of time just disappearing, miss Ellie is going to be 2 super soon! I cannot believe I am going to have a 2 yr old already. She has accomplished so much in the past year.. To name a few:
She learned how to walk at 13 months
Became a big sister at 18 months and loves her little brother.
Started sleeping in her toddler bed at 20 months
Started talking up a storm some place between 20-21 months! She says so many things and her vocab just grows and grows every day.. Maybe Ill blog about what all she can say.
These little people just amaze me every day.
And speaking of time just disappearing, miss Ellie is going to be 2 super soon! I cannot believe I am going to have a 2 yr old already. She has accomplished so much in the past year.. To name a few:
She learned how to walk at 13 months
Became a big sister at 18 months and loves her little brother.
Started sleeping in her toddler bed at 20 months
Started talking up a storm some place between 20-21 months! She says so many things and her vocab just grows and grows every day.. Maybe Ill blog about what all she can say.
These little people just amaze me every day.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Moooooody
I am having a craptastic moody day.. Bluh. Both my kids were screaming at the same time and I just cant take it.. Finally my son cried his self to sleep, which I totally feel bad about, but I had to get what I was doing done.. My DD is being a brat and Im just not in the mood to put up with it right now.. As of right now, I do not want to have more kids! I dont have the patience most of the time for the two I have..
I have to take Ellie to her skin doctor today, which makes me mad. Its a follow up.. I could just tell them over the phone, Yes the issue is fixed... No I have to drag my kids 40 minutes away, sit in a waiting room and then fight with Ellie.. What is worse is that the doctor isnt even going to get to look at her. She freaks out every time he comes into the room. Its not like he is an old man. He is probably in his early 30s and not bad looking.. But she loses her mind..Then of course Garrett will start crying and by the time we get back into the car, I will be ready to drink... I just hope I get a parking space close to the door..
Oh and my house is a total disaster.. I mean a bomb went off in here and it just puts me in a worse mood.. lol Sucks!!
Ok off to load kids up in the car..
I have to take Ellie to her skin doctor today, which makes me mad. Its a follow up.. I could just tell them over the phone, Yes the issue is fixed... No I have to drag my kids 40 minutes away, sit in a waiting room and then fight with Ellie.. What is worse is that the doctor isnt even going to get to look at her. She freaks out every time he comes into the room. Its not like he is an old man. He is probably in his early 30s and not bad looking.. But she loses her mind..Then of course Garrett will start crying and by the time we get back into the car, I will be ready to drink... I just hope I get a parking space close to the door..
Oh and my house is a total disaster.. I mean a bomb went off in here and it just puts me in a worse mood.. lol Sucks!!
Ok off to load kids up in the car..
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Proud Mommy Moments
As a mommy there are so many things that your baby does that makes you proud. From the first smile, first giggles, first time rolling over, crawling, walking, talking and it just goes on and on. There will always be more proud moments then disappointments.
Ellie shocks me with something new everyday. Right now my proud mommy moment is when she spots something, recognizes it and says what it is. Hearts, stars, birds, trees, dogs, something on TV. This list also goes on. She is so bright, full of spunk and great personality.
Ellie shocks me with something new everyday. Right now my proud mommy moment is when she spots something, recognizes it and says what it is. Hearts, stars, birds, trees, dogs, something on TV. This list also goes on. She is so bright, full of spunk and great personality.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
My So Called Crazy Life
This is mainly a recap/ vent about our crazy land lay and the issues we have had with her.. Skip to the end if you wish not to read about it.. lol
I might just possibly lose it.. lol Monday night Logan got a call from our land lady.. She is drunk and mind you this was at 9:30 PM. She starts ripping his ass about one of our dogs getting out of the yard the previous Friday.. I guess our dog, which ever it was, went through the bushes at their house and scared one of their guests, who already is scared of dogs... So she is ripping into Logan about this... Why she waited till Monday to do this?? She claimed it was the first time she had seen Logan home since Friday.. Umm.. Hello, we were both home Friday.. Why not make a quick stop in and say "Hey your dog got out. Please take better care in keeping the gate closed...." Noooo. That would have been way way to easy... Her husband said she had a bad weekend. Bad weekend or not, that is no way to treat someone who is paying you money to live in your house.... So... This isnt actually the first time our crazy land lady has pulled this crap.. We have had two previous issues with rent.. Our fault, not really.. After having first moved in the agreement was set to $500 per pay day.. Well Logan asked her husband if it was ok if we paid the full amount on the last payday of the money, it would just be easier for us... He said yes.. So after the crazy loony calling 2 different times, months apart, ripping our asses for no paying rent as agreed upon, I took it upon myself to get this shit straightened out.. Even though I stressed probably 100 times that her husband said it was ok to pay it that way, she didnt want to hear it and said it was our fault.. Then we had issues with her.. She would offer to watch Ellie any time I needed but when I actually asked her to, it was an inconvenience for her. The first time was so I could go get a new drivers license.. Well Logan ended up getting of work early and we went together, which made having Ellie easier cause we both got to watch her.. I tried knocking on the door to tell the crazy bat that we didnt need her to watch E.. No answer... So I let it slip.. We she flipped out saying she waited around all day, she was probably just down stairs and I should have went in.. BS! Im not going to enter into anyones house without them first opening the door for me.. The next time was for when I was going to be induced to have Garrett.. She offered to watch Ellie, then got super sick and couldnt.. No prob.. I set it up for a friend to watch her... Well the night before I was scheduled to be induced she comes over (After 9:30 PM) bombed off her ass, crying about issues her family is having and all this crap.. By the end of her 2 hour cry fest she says she can go ahead and watch Ellie for us.. (My mom was there too and planned to watch her until it was time to have the baby, then she would come to the hospital, thus leaving E with the land lady) Well I get a call from my mom, right when things were getting heated up at the hospital, her asking me of it was alright for the land lady to go to dinner.. Um, no! Hello... She said she could watch Ellie for us... Soooo the next time I had asked her if she could watch Ellie when I went in for my 6 week check cause I didnt think I could watch both kids while up on the table with my legs in the air. She said she wasnt sure of her schedual and I said that was ok, I wasnt sure what time it was at any ways.. So a few things happened while over there that made me mad, so me and the kids left.. I ended up asking a friend if she could watch her for me, she said yes.. I tried to call the land loony but no answer, I left a message telling her not to worry about it, I got a friend to do it.. Later the night Ellie is playing with my phone and hits send which calls the last person back, her... I just hang up the phone.. The next day she corners Logan and tells him she can never watch the kids again. This it always seems like such a big deal. That I need to make friends that can watch them for me and that she doesnt appreciate being called and hung up on.. Logan explained that that was Ellie.. So like 3 weeks ago, I was busy working on some craft projects and she told Logan that if I needed her to watch the kids so that I could get them done, she would... WTH, are you freaking serious? Then the dog issue occurred. This lady has no back bone unless she is trashed.. She is a crazy booze hound and we are tired of it..
---> In short, our land lady is a crazy booze hound with split personalities. Our lease is up mid-July.. We are trying to find a new rental so we can be done with this nut job! So now Im stressed trying to figure out what can be packed a head of time, because the kids and I are due to drive from Illinois to Arizona July 23rd and be gone a whole month.... I cant possibly leave Logan with to much packing left to do as he has his own packing to do (the garage, shed, his clothes, etc) Not to mention he and a friend will be doing the moving while I am away.. It is like crazy hard to find a house for rent back here with 3 bedrooms, a big garage and a fenced in back yard that allows dogs!! It was pure luck that we found the house we are in now.. To bad the land lady is swimming at the bottom of the bottle.. I hope another house comes up soon!!! I wish we were just moving back to Arizona!! Not going to happen yet, saddly enough...
I might just possibly lose it.. lol Monday night Logan got a call from our land lady.. She is drunk and mind you this was at 9:30 PM. She starts ripping his ass about one of our dogs getting out of the yard the previous Friday.. I guess our dog, which ever it was, went through the bushes at their house and scared one of their guests, who already is scared of dogs... So she is ripping into Logan about this... Why she waited till Monday to do this?? She claimed it was the first time she had seen Logan home since Friday.. Umm.. Hello, we were both home Friday.. Why not make a quick stop in and say "Hey your dog got out. Please take better care in keeping the gate closed...." Noooo. That would have been way way to easy... Her husband said she had a bad weekend. Bad weekend or not, that is no way to treat someone who is paying you money to live in your house.... So... This isnt actually the first time our crazy land lady has pulled this crap.. We have had two previous issues with rent.. Our fault, not really.. After having first moved in the agreement was set to $500 per pay day.. Well Logan asked her husband if it was ok if we paid the full amount on the last payday of the money, it would just be easier for us... He said yes.. So after the crazy loony calling 2 different times, months apart, ripping our asses for no paying rent as agreed upon, I took it upon myself to get this shit straightened out.. Even though I stressed probably 100 times that her husband said it was ok to pay it that way, she didnt want to hear it and said it was our fault.. Then we had issues with her.. She would offer to watch Ellie any time I needed but when I actually asked her to, it was an inconvenience for her. The first time was so I could go get a new drivers license.. Well Logan ended up getting of work early and we went together, which made having Ellie easier cause we both got to watch her.. I tried knocking on the door to tell the crazy bat that we didnt need her to watch E.. No answer... So I let it slip.. We she flipped out saying she waited around all day, she was probably just down stairs and I should have went in.. BS! Im not going to enter into anyones house without them first opening the door for me.. The next time was for when I was going to be induced to have Garrett.. She offered to watch Ellie, then got super sick and couldnt.. No prob.. I set it up for a friend to watch her... Well the night before I was scheduled to be induced she comes over (After 9:30 PM) bombed off her ass, crying about issues her family is having and all this crap.. By the end of her 2 hour cry fest she says she can go ahead and watch Ellie for us.. (My mom was there too and planned to watch her until it was time to have the baby, then she would come to the hospital, thus leaving E with the land lady) Well I get a call from my mom, right when things were getting heated up at the hospital, her asking me of it was alright for the land lady to go to dinner.. Um, no! Hello... She said she could watch Ellie for us... Soooo the next time I had asked her if she could watch Ellie when I went in for my 6 week check cause I didnt think I could watch both kids while up on the table with my legs in the air. She said she wasnt sure of her schedual and I said that was ok, I wasnt sure what time it was at any ways.. So a few things happened while over there that made me mad, so me and the kids left.. I ended up asking a friend if she could watch her for me, she said yes.. I tried to call the land loony but no answer, I left a message telling her not to worry about it, I got a friend to do it.. Later the night Ellie is playing with my phone and hits send which calls the last person back, her... I just hang up the phone.. The next day she corners Logan and tells him she can never watch the kids again. This it always seems like such a big deal. That I need to make friends that can watch them for me and that she doesnt appreciate being called and hung up on.. Logan explained that that was Ellie.. So like 3 weeks ago, I was busy working on some craft projects and she told Logan that if I needed her to watch the kids so that I could get them done, she would... WTH, are you freaking serious? Then the dog issue occurred. This lady has no back bone unless she is trashed.. She is a crazy booze hound and we are tired of it..
---> In short, our land lady is a crazy booze hound with split personalities. Our lease is up mid-July.. We are trying to find a new rental so we can be done with this nut job! So now Im stressed trying to figure out what can be packed a head of time, because the kids and I are due to drive from Illinois to Arizona July 23rd and be gone a whole month.... I cant possibly leave Logan with to much packing left to do as he has his own packing to do (the garage, shed, his clothes, etc) Not to mention he and a friend will be doing the moving while I am away.. It is like crazy hard to find a house for rent back here with 3 bedrooms, a big garage and a fenced in back yard that allows dogs!! It was pure luck that we found the house we are in now.. To bad the land lady is swimming at the bottom of the bottle.. I hope another house comes up soon!!! I wish we were just moving back to Arizona!! Not going to happen yet, saddly enough...
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Morning After
So I had to do something this weekend that I never thought I would have to do.. While out of town, hubby and I had a pretty fun, unplanned for night together while the kids slept... I hadnt planned for it to happen at all since I have has like 0 sex drive since getting pregnant last year... Anyways, the morning after we went to Walmart to get the Morning After/ Plan B pill. I dont think I would have ended up pregnant as I dont think I was Oing at the time.. But we didnt want to take the chance as we have a 4 month old right now.. Im going crazy with 2 under two, but I would have to be institutionalized if I had 3 under three!
Anyways, thats not what this post is about.. Do you have ANY idea how much the Plan-B pill cost?? WTH! It cost $55 and some change after the taxes... Are you kidding me? No wonder there are still teens pregnant.. I know its for those 17 and up, but I cant imagine a 17 yr old having $55 on them, let alone wanting to spend it on something like that.. I also cant imagine them asking their parents for the money, "Mom can I get $60?" "What for?" "Oh you know, the morning after pill." Yeah, I can see alot of parents freaking.. However, I hope to have a very open relationship with my daughter.. but still, that seems awfully pricey. (Not as pricey as actually having a child) Yeah so, I just think its totally crazy the cost of the ONE teeny tiny pill. That's my 2 cents.
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